Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?
ayien.
Weirdly wired, wiredly weird.
I am, ur favourite nurse.
scentless apprentice
Monday, June 09, 2008, 1:27 PM
perhaps by now, ull finally come to realise that you cant always have whud u want. in fact, the more you want it, the more you cant get it. its just the way things work, honey. so life's a bitch, face it already. be thankful for whud you already have. whuds the point in going for something you know you can never have? i know, theres comfort in knowing that at least uve tried. but one gotta be realistic too y'noe?remember grenouille the scentless apprentice? he tried so very hard to get that one scent that he so much desired, so that people will know him, so that people will come to love him more than god himself, even. so much so, they even forget the fact that he killed/skinned 25 virgins! and when he finally created that one scent he wanted so much - and people loved him more than life - he realised that he wasnt even happy anymore (not that he was ever happy anyway), and that suddenly he wants people to hate him so much just so he could... (im not gonna spoil it by telling you the ending. prity ironic tho.)
its not at all that different at all. minus the feeling of jadedness and wanting-to-die part of cus. sometimes you think you might want that something. you wish and wish so hard, you try and try so hard. but when that something is already within your grasp, you feel like you want it no more. come to think of it, maybe it just the WANTING it thats thrilling? maybe, maybe, maybe. who knows? *shrugs*