Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?
ayien.
Weirdly wired, wiredly weird.
I am, ur favourite nurse.
Wednesday, January 30, 2008, 11:29 PM
three fricking days of silence.its because i dont wanna become dependant on anyone but myself, because i dont wanna start getting used to your goodmornings and goodnights, because i dont trust my heart enough to not bend and break.
and i hate that feeling. that feeling like im deceiving myself. and that is precisely why too, im distancing myself from you especially, and from everyone else. cause fact is, i just cant deal with losing anyone who was once close to me, again. like they always say, whuds broken can never be fixed. well, its not always true. but heck. even if it CAN, things wun neccesarily be ever the same again, can it? at the end of the day, the damage is done. it scares me a whole lot tho, the thought of plunging freefall without parachute into sth im not even certain of. i want to, but im not strong enough to deal with it.
and to you, Mr F. im sorry if it seems like im not even trying to keep the friendship going anymore. cus honestly? i jus so fricking sick and tired of the same old thing over and over again. lets jus do us both a favour and put a stop already. ill still be that same ain you know of cus, but you very well know, i wun treat you any better than i had. when the word bestfriends became redefined. ring any bell? well guess whud? you drew the line.
stop trying to figure me out. you, you, you, and you. it wudnt help, wudnt make any difference. stop trying to read between the lines either. you wouldnt understand. you think you do, but you dont.
tsk. wow. this sounds prity negative. i should probably stop typing already. haiy. gdnight~