Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?
ayien.
Weirdly wired, wiredly weird.
I am, ur favourite nurse.
Saturday, December 02, 2006, 8:54 PM
i am feeling so fucking pissed ryte now.nevermind the fact that ive been a tad too cranky today.
or that ive been grumbling over every single thing i do.
at least i got it done in the end.
forget about the favor i asked, that has gone unfulfilled.
i dun really bother about that anymore.
if ppl wanna be calculative about stuffs he was asked to do,
i cant do nithing about it. be a childish freak about this, wuncha?
IF THAT MAKES YOU LESS SAD, wth. go on lah siaks.
but it pisses me off to the very lil nerve in my lil toes.
so much so its making me tremble this very minute in fury.
so much so im grinding my teeth that it actualli hurts.
and i haf the tempation to hurl this pc right smack in ur face, dammit.
anger could be such a strong motivaional force.
but it wun do me any good either. so im typing this to calm myslf down.
HONESTLY. cant you just be man about this?
quit being a fucking coward wid the minds of a nincompoop will you?
cus it annoyes the hell outta me. stand up for whuds right, no doubt.
but kalau beruduh tu biralah beralas sikit boleh tak?
just because the arrow's on you, wid all the evidence set out there,
doesnt mean u can start diverting the jury's attention by arrowing it back at me.
it doest fucking work that way ouhkay?
grow up lah BROTHER DEAREST!
thats how things haf been going in the house, right back when i was whud?
OLDE ENUFF TO START RUNNING?
ouhkaye, maybe im exaggerating, but i meant it literally.
evrytime something goes wrong, something gets screwed.
its "Gotta be Nurul.. must be her work lah nie.."
evrytime i dun do sumthg, the naggings could last me a year.
but when it involves someone else, haaaa. automatically forgiven, no qns!
think abt the time the cam furst got lost (by abg), they fussed a bit.
and it didnt even last for one fucking month ouhkaye?
and then just recently it got spoiled, and then comes this big drama.
and u know whuds the best part? the put it in my room after it got spoiled.
wow. whud better way to get me to be the scapegoat huh?
dun bother denying it when i made tt assumption.
i could bloody see thru your eyes. the way it faltered from my stare.
and the way u stooped for a brief minute when i said.
"im not gonna argue. this is sick. who was the last to use it? whose pic was the last?"
cat got your tongue, boy?
to mum, to dad...
i just hope that for once, ull just stop looking a the bad second-child kid,
stop overlooking the good smart kid and get the facts right furst.
and it aint about the camera at all. u know it.
and sometimes it just breaks my heart.
to know that u dun even trust me, as much as u say u do.
ain-