Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?
ayien.
Weirdly wired, wiredly weird.
I am, ur favourite nurse.
Thursday, November 02, 2006, 12:44 AM
ouhkehhh. i simply cannot stand not blogging. i suppose its pretty much i my veins, after blogging for three frickin years. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? blogging since fifteen, way back when ppl aint so hyped up wid blogging and ppl wun get sued over stuffs they say in it. haaaaaaaaaaa. and i still haf the previous three-or-four-or-idk-how-many blogs from last time. sumhow, re-reading it kinda makes me feel that calming sadness and the onceuponatime innocence. but of cus, those memories are mine, and solely mine to keep. (there's the pontianak sundal malam's soundtrack playing in the background, and it kinda fits the mood y'noe?)anyways, there's LOAAAADS of updates. hrmms. well yeahs, haf been feeling a lil emotionally wounded and the heart goes bangbang! i was at my lowest point and i swear if i did any more thinking, my brain wud explode into tiny pixiedusts. and i still hafta thank the GFs for the psychotheraphy and brainwashing and for clearing the haze thats been choking up my head. surprisingly enuff, i had no tears to shed. haiiishhhh. tapi saya betul-betul sedih seh. all im asking for is a lil more attention from you, a lil more loving, so i wudnt feel like im nuthing as compared to ur friends. i noe im being selfish by not thinking of how u wud be feeling, whud wid ur fren lying on the hospital bed. but STILL, it wudnt hurt to show me that u reaaly care right? its just that... the thought of having to go thru the whole thing again freaks me out. cus it always end up that way. furst comes the busy-ness, and then the bf would be all absorbed in his own stuffs and friends, and then we'd simply drift apart day by day.. and before i noe it, its over. im just so tired of that. and wanie's been screaming those very words till ive got it all framed in my mind. SAVE IT! DROP THE EGO AND SAVE IT. (and she said she'll smack me if i even raise my ego by an inch. *sobsob*) haha. she's fine that way. and i appreciate it truckloads. i love you baybeh. but i love my buncits more larrs. =) anyhoos, all's well and swell now. haiish. BUT. buzz's dad's in hospital now i heard. according to the bf, she's sobbing uncontrollably outside the emergency room. and i dunno if i shud drop in or not. i mean.... *sighs* u people wudnt understand. i just hope she's strong enuff. if only i cud lend her my strength. i noe how it feels like. my dad's contracted cancer before. and im thankful its over now (i hope). syukur alhamdulillah.
ouhkeh, this was supposed to be a happy post since im feeling all happy. aiyaiiis. WE PLAYED SOFTBALL FOR SPORTS&WELLNESS yesterday. heh heh! softball is LOVE baybeh. haiiihhhh. i miss those days ALOT, when lyz n i wud be on opposite teams playing softball, badminton.. ANYTHING. and those PE lessons wid the mates and how we'd cuss soo badly at the end of the game cus of some pathetic sore losers. (u shud see lyz wid her middle finger in the air and u'll laugh.) hahaha. BEST KANN! haiyaaa. the only part yg tak best abt yesterday kan, is that my team didnt get to bat, and only a few of us got to pitch. next week allryte, next week!
and ouh gawd. her (mua class advisor) spelling is HORRENDOUS. i swear if i ever teach her english, i wud give her a straight E wid one eye closed. it pisses me off, evry bit of her because she has this habit of picking me out evry single fucken lesson. and she still got the cheek to ask me if ive answered her qn yet. so i was like like giving her that blank look and patiently nodded. haaaaaaaaaaaaa. she cant even spell YOGA, she spells it as YOGO or YOLGA or YOLGAL. serious, tak bedek! go ask the rest. she shud probably get a checker wid her the next time she comes for lesson. wahhh. korang memang betul-betul anti dia nampak? ak ar, memang pun! hahaha.
ouh yeah ouh yeahs! went to pick out the developed studio photos wid the fam earlier on. and they were luhvlyyyyyy. i loikkkee! heh heh! for those who wanna haf a peek of it, ull hafta personally ask me lah eh cus i cant seem to scan it because its unplugged and im too layzee to put it back, and zrul wun help me and he just called me a layzee ass. lawaaaaaaaaa tauu! come my house for raya lahhh! and on the plusplus side, the folks-and-syz will be out of town tomorrow till sunday. godblessME! AUTHORITY OVERRULED. heh heh. tomorrow, zrul and i are gonna tear the house down to pieces. *grins* (and the best part is that bro's away in camp.)
anws, we had dinner sumwhere near almukminin after leaving IMM, treat from the folks. food was so not nice, just like the mushroom soup. but the rest enjoyed their foody thou. so yeah. just when the kway teow came, i sorta blurted out "merah nyeee??!" too loudly and accoring to my mum, it was damn loud. ouh gawdd. tt was so embarrasing sehhh. and the old lady who cleared our table actually thinks that the bratty princess is chinese (eventho i insisted she's japanese) or that my mum adopted a chinese baby and brought her up as a muslim. hahahahahahah. zerul n i had a good laugh over that, particuarly when dad started talking to her in hokkien and she sulked away. indeed, my syz IS japanese tauu. betuull! hmmms.
allryte, allryte. its twelve-thirty already and mum bising already because ive got skul at eight tomorrow. and the buncits sudah kasi signal already. dan saya mahu buat sedikit art&craft.
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