Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?
ayien.
Weirdly wired, wiredly weird.
I am, ur favourite nurse.
Thursday, September 14, 2006, 9:01 PM
u know, sumtimes when i look at people who has been frens wid another for so long, i get this aching feeling at the pitch of the heart. like there's sumthg hollow thats been hanging there for quite some time. i used to think how ridiculous it was to stop being sumone's fren or simply break it off over sumthing silly. or worst still, to even end up as rivals or enemies over some stupid senseless jerk. those in favour, say AYE! hmms. is certainly is, isnt it? its almost like playing tug-of-war - having two people pulling the rope on opposite ends, over whud? a useless piece of white string tied to the centre! but at least there's sumthg beneficial in it, cus u get to sweat over the fun and laugh it off!
anyways, back to the initial issue. isnt it really sad to be seeing people whom u feel u seem to noe since forever just vanish like that? and i blame it on time. people tend to get enveloped into studies and schools and work and stuffs. so much so, they tend to forget about the things that, at a certain point of time, were of utmost importance. the friends. it makes me angry, it gets me frustrated, it makes me hurt and sad. and if i cud haf it all, i wud wanna relive those moments when evrythng seemed so clear-cut and simple. where we were young and stupid, giggly and excited, hyper and moody. and yes, HAPPY. at least we were fucken happy, dammit. haish. but there really aint nuthink much i can do anyways since some people wish to remain distant. surprisingly, there are even some who refuse to acknowledge you. padahal dulu rapat kebabai punyehhh! but i shalt not name people.
i just wish that the few people i have right now will be the people whom i will be seeing for another ten years or so cus it pains me to see people leaving widout goodbyes. sumhow goodbyes seem easier than a hello for some. *bangs head* and clearly the thought of graduating is very depressing for me. cuus people-people will be too busy at work and the cycle repeats itself again. nnnnnnnnnooooooooo!! *sighs*
and most sincerely, for those who actualli pop in their heads evry now and then.. WA SAYANG MANYAK-MANYAK SAMA KORANG LAHHS! heehee. cant wait to meet up wid a few people. hmmms. so anyways, as jealous as i am wid the strong frenship my buncits haf wid his haziq, i gotta say i am quite proud of it. althou i aint too happy about ziq giving him free ciggies every now and then lah kanns. hahahs. and to people like this, i hope u really treasure small stuffs like this. cuus there might be people out there like me who wud haf wanted the same too.
besides, who else can u tell about the new cd u bought? or about u being saman-ed this afternoon? or about how u tore ur pants real big at the centre? or about sum stupid kid who shiok-sendiri? or about how u wish u had a .44 calibre to shoot the bloody dog who annoys u bigtime almost every day? or about ur attachment? or how sweet ur boyfie is?
ahhhhhhhhs. so now ur smiling arncha? NO, ur not?
are you, now? heh hehhhhh! =) iloveyoubaybeh!
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