Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?
ayien.
Weirdly wired, wiredly weird.
I am, ur favourite nurse.
Sunday, September 24, 2006, 2:11 PM
sometimes there are dreams which truly haunts me. so much so, tt i can actually spell out the little details tt ppl dun usually notice in real life. and bad dreams like this, people wud usually refer to it as nightmares. but sumhow, the word just doesnt fit. cus i haf this weird idea that nightmares equals to dreams wid pontianaks, gremlins and all the other unmentionable and undescribable fugly creatures which gets u all sweaty and screaming in ur sleep. but of cus, i never believed in boogie mans cus the bottom part of my bed is always, ALWAYS packed wid stuffs that mum cant squeeze into the storeroom.so anws, like i said, those dreams in the earlier part truly scares me. cus it usually involves those few people who matters to me in some way or another. like tt one time when i dreamt i was holding on to sumone and whailing away. and all around was monotonously greyish and dull. and i swear u can actually feel the sadness all around. its like as if u were THERE at that time. and just recently, i had this dream where i was walking up these flight of never-ending stairs. and i remembered when i looked up, there's this '15th storey' sign at the top of the staircase. BUUUT. on the way up, i saw all these piles of dead women with all the expressions u cant possibly imagine. but its kinda weird, how u can actually feel whud they're feeling thru their faces. surprisingly, i wasnt scared. just all empty inside. and i was dressed in corporae wear heyy!
and then. there was this door at the top. opened it ever so slowly, only to find the familiar face of sumone i happen to dearly love at this moment (only older). he was sorta slouchingly sitting at the corner of the floor, back against the wall, shoes off. then there's this jury at the centre, and another curly-haired woman at the stand. with that grin like she noes sumthg i dunno. and whud happens after that? my alarm clock rang lah siak. followed by a wake-up msg from the buncits. hahahas. i tried forcing myself back to sleep, just to see how it ends. but of cus, thgs doesnt usually happen the way u want it to. aiyaaaahhhhhs. it kills the suspense. and now im left hanging. i hate stories told halfway y'noe?
hmms yeahs. hopefully it doesnt prove anithing yeahs? i dun want it to be a ghost of a good thg scene. cus it sounds so sad.
and its pretty scary when people just pop up and say surprising things u dun expect. cus i suck at dealing things like that. it makes me feel awkward, and if i dun react the way i shud, people might just end up feeling insulted. haha. its sumthg that cannot be helped. just know that, im content the way i am. and friends do matter to me afterall ouhkaye? so dun stop being one.
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