Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?
ayien.
Weirdly wired, wiredly weird.
I am, ur favourite nurse.
Saturday, August 26, 2006, 8:04 PM
I want hurt you, but I cant cut you fast enough. The ink is dripping, and my letter has become a mess.
I want to hate you, but hate is love, just reversed
Why do we talk about things that we loath the most?
ouh my god, i want to tear you apart!
its scary how the supposedly boring week took a swift turn towards the end of the week.
and im trying to breathe here, while i take it in.
and as funnily as i wud like for it to be, it actualli isnt.
and no, i suppose it wasnt a joke.
and the question marks tts bin popping out after all these while has finally been resolved. *phews*
i still get that queasy feeling, i dun feel too good.
so lets just keep the blood in our heads, and our feets on the ground.
come whud may, i do not wanna think of whuds to happen if it ever does.
for now, perhaps ill settle for sumthing more realistic.
something i can believe in, something i wudnt hafta worry about.
except the squabbles every now and then.
and ive got a feeling for the months to come, i prolly wun see much of it.
since the initiator will be drowing in his own personall bussiness,
and i wudnt like to interfere in any aspect of it. i wash my hand off it.
*dammit, syz just screamed her head off (into my ear) over a freakin baby lizard. and i so feel like stamping her off, but i cant. ugghhhs.*
and in times of adversity, u wud expect to turn to the person closest to you.
but it all gets harder when u cant truly decide to whom u shud turn to.
its rather complicated, realli it is. u pick up the phone, thinking you know who to call.
but u end up wid the engaged tone cus u haf no idea whose number to dial.
cuus evryone's either too busy, or drifted away, or too caught up in their own problems.
so you end up feeling down in the dumps. sad, i noe.
so u can only mellow out and dream of sumthing good in the meantime.
So velvet lush and nectarous, there is a price to pay for dreaming.
ouh yeahs, i just remembered.
heard The Black Dahlia's out! mymy. its like a thought-come-true y'noe? i was just thinking "if only they'd make it into a movie~"
suddenly POOF! its out on ET. dunno if they're gonna haf it here or not tho.
but tis so coool. altho the cast and setting of the movie luuks boring.
havent u guys heard of THEBLACKDAHLIAMURDER??
AWESOMEST SHIT! =)
'nuff said. perhaps ill drown in my own emotions or whudshits. certainly not here. *ehems* its sumthg personal.
ain-