Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?
ayien.
Weirdly wired, wiredly weird.
I am, ur favourite nurse.
last sunrise
Wednesday, February 15, 2006, 10:04 AM
In the sunshine, the sun is mine.
endless days, endless nights. past days have bin a slumber. the body is wearing out, the mind is gettting all dreamy. and its barely been a week! only two friickin days of work, like how pathetic is that? i suppose the only reason im hanging on is the thought of moving off to year two by the end of the attachy. and work aint much fun widout Ms Rahimah as our clinical teacher and geeex. it has definitely been a bore widout the biscuit-snitching-buddy around. haaaaiiish. i cant even list down A good point bout it. bleaaahs. but so far, thing's been a-ouhkay. just that the hantu jembalangs tinks that pressing the callbell is the best way to freak me out. and how come its always ME? its like suddenly out of nowhere, say bout 8 plus... the callbell will be ringing and there wudnt be any patient on the bed AND the callbell is on the callbell holder. so there aint a possibility that sumone is actualli calling for a nurse. and u noe, how the elder generation used to say - kalau nampak benda-benda, jangan ditegur? so when the AN practically shouted (such that the whole ward can hear her) 'ehh.. ghost rite? ghost rite? nobady over there, but got callbell.. that bed at the corner there rite?' obviously i denied it lahhhhs! hahah. nak mampus?? if i had nodded, god noes if that thing followed me home or summat.
and i cant wait to get the morning shift so i can blardy rest my aching-all-over body. ahhhhs. sleep is scarce, sleep is bliss. and there's like this suffocating feeling overwhelming me. like i nid to get out and get some air. bleaahs. yalaahs, whud i meant was sumfink to let go and breathe normally. waaarrgghhs. save it till weekends i guess. my sanity on the funeral pyre. tsktskkk. i swear im gonna take off on a chocolate binge when the whole thing pulls over. i hafta go to candy empireeee. but thats wishful tinking, at least for now. since SUMBADY insists that i save up for a pair of black crocs kan. in case u slenger people dunno whud crocs are...
hahahahahahahs. yalaaahs. it costs a bomb, mind you. a friickin 50 bucks, plusminus? and i still dunno how he managed to coax me to geddit. at least i wun be wearing it alone. a just-for-laugh moment. huahuahuas. and if u ever see anybady on the streets wearing a black crocs, just holler my name.. who noes it might be me? ahhhhhas. c-rapp. am actualli having second thoughts. hmmms. and i kinda like that freshbox tee, y'noe? come geddit, lets go!
haaaaiiiish. i dunno how im gonna get to work today since he's skuulin in the morning. he's bin dragging me to work for the past few daysand telling me how it aint gonna be that bad. altho almost all the time he's trying to act cute, it works. boohoos. and work's up till nine. so ders no way im gonna getta see him anyways. and not tomorrow too, since he has skuul up to five and bike prac at nine plus. and not the day after too, since imma be off to OAC training. and not the day after that after too, since ill prolly be going out wid the tomandjerries. suuuckaay. and the blade's still not in. so its all the way to sunday. so we'll see who misses who furst. ive got a feeling im gonna win. muahahahahahahs. and geex, im so sorie bout yesterday. twas rather sweet i guess, u coming over wid the roche BUT had u waited for 5 minutes more, i'd haf been down for my break. apaaaadaahhhs. and u ate the roches afterall? ceeettts!
and all i need is ur hug. to make evrything turn out okay. ixevolxuoyxerom.
geex. ive been missing a whole lot of people. thanks for tagging yeah people? ALLY! YATY! imissyou too! and all the other people. if u sneezed, then its a sign uve been missed by me lah ehhh! =) haiiish. hafta go get ready for work. till later people~
and if my lungs still let me breathe, will you be there for me?
-ain