Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?
ayien.
Weirdly wired, wiredly weird.
I am, ur favourite nurse.
Secrets of mind change reality.
Monday, January 23, 2006, 2:05 PM
YOU..Did you get scared standing alone in the crowd?
Did you give up when i was nowhere to be found?
Did you get tired of being left all alone?
Do you feel better now that you're on your own?
When the phone rings do you ever hope that it's me?
Do you ever dream of a day when we will still be?
And if my life should fall apart would you still care?
would you still care?
haiish.
and YOU...
You're coming too close and I can't pretend
That I'll pick you up or let you come in
We've been through this before,
so please understand...
That nothing in this heart can save you from the pain you seek...
and IM...
Lost, Broken, Confused.
xXx
one down, one last one to go. and im quite confident that i kinda screwed up the last paper by a notch. all thanks to my layzeeness to go thru some last bit. surprisingly, i freaked out at the very last minute. thats like so unpunkrawk. hahahs. but who cares lahs. the furst reaction when i got the question paper.. "OUH FUUUCK.." hahahahah. i tink Goofy heard it sumhow lahs. but again, who cares? hahs. maybe im just tired of screwing up my life. and im friickin sick of those comments by PEOPLE. its so damn puzzling. so fuckin weird. like i said, the more u try to please people, the more they ask of you. i got a friickin A for bio last semester and hey, mum STILL aint quite happy bout it. she tinks that the only reason i hadnt gotten a response from the hospital bout the fuckin scholarship is because i aint working hard enuff. NOT TRYING HARD ENUFF. if ders an A star, i wud haf dived for i wudnt i? problem is the highest grade IS an A. arrrghhhhs. reallli. seriously, its a miracle i din blow my top yesterday. whud wid dad raising his voice at me. geex. call me impatient or whudsoever, but i definitely haf zero tolerance for poeple who raise their voice at me. its like a trigger to the reflex. next thing ull see will be me screaming my head off. mybad. i noe im but an insolent, mean, the-second-child kid. nasty temper i haf but of cus, most of u prolly wudnt haf seen it before. ain is like dr jekyll-mr hyde, if u get whud i mean. ahahahs. and then there's the FREAK. damned bugger. clearly unsatisfied wid me turning off the pc after much pestering from him (yalah. he bugged me to turn it off, yet he wants to use it for AWHILE furst. like whud kinda shit is that?), he smacked me straight on the shoulder - sumwhere near the shoulder blade. why, actualli.. i tink the main reason he hit me is because i screamed infidelities at him before slamming the door at him lahs. bwahahahahas. so congratulations lahs, i now haf a newly-born blueblack at the back of the shoulder. its ouhkay. an eye for an eye. *sadistic thoughts* muahahahahahahs. but realli, im quite impressed at how i din wallop him up like i usually wud. nurses dun fight eyy? hurhurs. like real~ so yuup, WELCOME TO THE ADAM'S FAMILY. and of cuus, scrape whud i jus typed out uhhs. im just feeling crankee. they're fine.. when they aint busy trynna screw me upside down. =P
hmmmms. i swear im gonna give myself a treat comes wednesday. after the blardy exam is over, i can blardy well hiphiphurray and for whuds worth, i can even do the jimmy jive around the house and nobady can blardy complain. hahaha. yaaayness... gonna watch Memoirs Of A Geisha wid lizzy-O!! and.. ahaaas. the mates are like planning to come over to JP's Banquet all for the sake of a plate of UDON? hahaha. at least its in the WEST for once~ and ouhs.. i miss biking in the park and pearl shooting. LETS GO EHHHHH? but aiyaaas. i stil got blading lessons. ahahahahahahahahah. can i change my mind? hmmms. and i wanna go to the beach lahs. and then there's the zoo also. boohooos. money money money~ hahas. pure bliss siiakkks. two weeks' worth of holidays. and then to attachy. attachy... haiiishh... aint quite pleased wid the current arrangement tho'. its a good thang im wid the same people. lets just hope we'll end up in the same TEAM again. mayyyn. and shikinn.. gawdd.. i miss working wid u baybehhh~ im kiping my fingers crossed that ull be in the team so we can go curik-curik the biscuits and kutuk-kutuk the BIG V and confuse-confuse the dementia makciks. hehehehe. ouhkaylahs, worst comes to worst, neighbouring ward also can lah, at least during break time can makan-makan and gossip-gossip together-gether. hahahahs.
hmmms. ouhkaylahs. im kinda drained actualli. so imma catch sum shut-eye now. till then people~
dictatosaurus,
ain