Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?
ayien.
Weirdly wired, wiredly weird.
I am, ur favourite nurse.
HAPPY LOONY NEW YEAR!
Friday, December 30, 2005, 3:18 PM
haiiish. dissappointment, dissapointment. i was viewing the old old blog i used to blog in, hoping to pick up some old entries bout some stuffs in the past but i guess it all dissappeared. or at least the older 100 entries did. and it did surprised me for a bit there. the very last entry on that page was on march twenty-third. so thats very long ago. ahaas. well actualli the main purpose i was so keen to re-read the entries was to see the ne year revolution i made last year for this year. but hey, ive got a twenty-dollar bill that says i prolly din even get the chance to strike off any of those wishes and promises and resolutions off my list. its pretty freakay how fast time is flying. and i mean REAL fast. place myslef on tis very day last year. i wud be back at delifrance, working for the furst week. yes, the FURST week. trynna fit in, trying to learn as much as soon as possible, trynna kip my ass clean off the manager's black book. yet now, it seems so faaaaar away.
hmmms. so *flassshhhh-backkk* to the beginning of 2005. *gimme a moment to tink over it yeahs*
january. haaaahs. geexa. i suppose i can still feel the excitement and the thrill of having the much-needed holiday. i mean.. who wudnt enjoy a long break after months of worrying and cramping for the Os rytey? but in my case, that hardly seems true cus for one, i ONLY started hitting the books bout a month before the exams itself. hehehe. i was THAT unmotivated - layzeeboner thru and thru. so yuupp. thats when frens really mattered cus all we had i mind was to enjoy. and darrrn. thats about the ONLY time u can actualli let loose and do whudever stuffs u haf been wanting to do. like dying the hair ( i was THAT kental huh?), polishing the nails, experimenting wid the make-ups and stuffs, shopping, going out and having a blast of a time!! but even the well runs dry when its not filled ryte? so after burning the buckeroos on entertainment and such, u gotta work ur ass off mayn. dats where i picked up some new close frens. job-hunting was fun indeed wid the besty and frappe. and guess who got the job? ahaas. n dats when i reaaaali started to go gig-ing i guess. my furst ever gig was that one at the siloso beach. it was on a hot sunday afternoon. frappe had asked me along to this gig of a fren of his and it so happened to be unused valentine. hahahaas. apparently sapik and frappe were old-time buddies heys. and ouhs tt gig clearly left a mark lahs. the way the drummer's hand shook so so violently after their set. over-exertion i guess. or maybe he's just too excited and hyped-up? hahs. then came punkrock returns. maaayyn. i loooooed that gig. one of the bestest kept memory so far. so yupp.. work-work-work.
february. hmms. people's burfdae came and went. and it was at this stage that i finally decided to put a stop to the 'big drama'. ties were cut and new bonds began. i suppose it was sometime in mid february that i met tis certain guy . hahahaaas. hmms. truth be told, i wasnt quite ready and on the go. all i wanted to do was up and go. however, twas some sorta magnetic field of sum sort that kept it there. geeexa. before i noe it, thngs were moving on fast ahead. like a speed bullet train never stopping at the red light. but at least it was
march. ouh-lalaaas. the very much anticipated day. results came out. jengjengjeng. wasnt as good as expected. thats when the truth dawned on me. results sucked of cus. failed miserably. bleuuurghhs. tuulaaahs. mak suruh blajar rajin-rajin. main campak-campak bola tennis kat bawah blok kannnnnn? hahaas. yeaahs. while the people were studying i was busy throwing balls off the ceiling and on the roof of the multi-storey carpark. so there you haf it - bouncing grades that werent that amazing. but at least i got a E8 instead of the usual F9. teeny-weeny achievement. hahahahah. pantat luus~ so aniways wid the rotten-state-of a cert, went off to apply at nyp altho the stars werent exactly shining down on me. with the last ounce of pride sewn on my pocket i had little choice but t head off to ite simei. the last chance. good thang its nursing. and yaays, god still loves me. i got it. i cudnt ask for more cud i?
april *fillintheblanks*. yeahs. that date. hmms. ouhkaay. wun say nimore of that. *fast-forwards*
june. ahaaaas. well yeaahs. started skuul. furst week of skull gotta be the most depressing. its like a totally new life. owells.. u noe? secondary and tertiary education? they're like so miles apart. and the people. sheeze. u just gotta kip watching ur back. but fortunately, things did went smooth-sailing as the time goes on. its all about breaking the ice afterall. when people offer you an apple and u dun happen to like apples, the least u cud do was to make the best of it - dip the apple wid nutella! ouhkaays. that sounds crappish. but whuddahell~ things were definitely taking a lift from there. and im glad to be there. glad to have known those wuundahfuul people. =) n ouh yeahs. came my burfday of cuus. ahaaas. not much of a celebration but its the thought that counts. officially seventeen. ouhkaay. i cant wait to turn nineteen. (but i can bet two years later ill be wishing otherwise. hahaaas.)
july. august. bleuuurghhs. nutink significantttt~
september. i hate september. i hate september. i hate september. i just do. well if u noe, u noe. if u dun, u dun. but ull noe if u were me and u aint. so nooope. u wudnt noe. the only good thing bout september is that my furst-ever attachy started in september. and thats when u realli learn to appreciate the older generation people for they are luuhvly people afterall. take for example, atuk superman! awwwh. i miss that old man. and its true whud people say. the furst few patients will be the people u will remember thruout ur career. on the plus side, we had a very very suupah nice clinical teacher. and the attachment group wasnt too bad either. bondng wid them wasnt even half as hard as it was on the furst day. heh heh. still remember the way shikin and i used to kutuk the Big Bad V. and the curik-ing of the biskuts. and the mysterious late night call form the empty cubicle. and nek minahhhh!! but still, i hate september.
october. november.december. ouhkaaays. im just feeling uuber layzee to update on those last few months urhs. i guess certain events that happen might haf an impact on certain people sum how. for now, i see the picture from an entirely different angle. like that stupid grin upon monalisa's face. but its mighty fine, it is. thanks for the endless concerns and whudevernots. ill appreciate whuatever u people ever did for me. down to the simplest minial stuffs like sharing a bar of chocolates wimme. heh heh.
awwh mayyn. the year's coming to an end yet i aint quite ready to plunge into it. can we put it on hold and hit replay at those favourite parts? i wud be the happiest person alive if that ever was possible mayn. hahaaas. ive got unaccomplished task, unfinished business, wishes unmet. haiiiish. gotta leave it to next year then? hmms. resolutions reolutions. i personally tink its a whole loadful of crap since i never get around to fulfilling it aniways. so dun bother making a list of it aniways. just a pieca advice people, dun take things as they are and taking things for granted wun do you any good either. cud ull never noe when the next ferris wheel comes tumbling down on ya.
ouhkaays. this entry hardly makes sense. bleuurghs. mr tay wud haf applauded me for my utmost skill in sublimation. aniways, HAPPY ADVANCED 2006 people! =)
a fond farewell,
ain